Savannah update

Well, it's been a few days with many ups and downs. On Tuesday night, Zack and I were able to go and visit Savannah up at Primary Children's. When we got there she started having seizures again so they had to sedate her heavily. Zack and I thought that we were prepared to see her, but as it turns out, nothing can prepare you to see your beautiful little niece in such a condition. Savannah is so little and needs so much right now. We touched her, spoke to her, held each other, and cried. We told her of our love for her and how the boys and Emily were all missing her and wanting her to get better. She is so little! As we went to rejoin Sarah, Juris, and my parents in the waiting room, Sarah told us that we were breaking the rules by crying. How can one not though? I have been amazed at their strength and their unwavering faith.
I think we cried nearly the whole way home. Savannah was just playing with Scotty a few days ago. I hate this!!!


Her MRI shows a large blot clot in her brain which is the reason for her seizures. They have started to give her blood thinners to make it dissolve. It does look like there is brain damage, but until she wakes, it will be difficult to know the extent. The doctors are saying that she will have to learn to walk again, speak again, and so many other things will have to be relearned. On the upside, she could make a full recovery - time is the real issue I think.
Yesterday, as I went about my daily routine, I was trying my best to think positively and keep my emotions at bay. However, there were times when out of the blue I would burst into tears. Then there were the times when I wanted to break as many dishes as I could by throwing them with all the strength that I could muster. I want to be able to sit with Sarah and her daughter, but it is very difficult to farm out 74 kids with school, preschool, piano, scouts, and football practice getting in the way. I hope Sarah, Juris and especially Savannah know how much we love them and are thinking of them constantly.